Re-think

My god!!
i cant't believe i'm doing this again

Once in a while i will start thinking what i want to do or accomplish in my future
but there is never a conclusion for this topic.
Maybe i will come out with one then lull myself to bed
but change my mind when i wake up the other day.

I get affected easily by others' words and then i will ask myself the same question over and over again
''what do i want to do in future?''
this future i mean isn't far actually.
I will be 20 in one month time and i haven really decide 
how the rest of my life gonna be like.

I always thought of going back to my hometown and to be filial daughter 
who can always be at the side of my dear parents.
To work in any institution that I find acceptable,
to earn enough to pay daily expenses and keep a little saving,
to go traveling once in a while,
to open a little bakery or kindergarten when i saved enough,
to grow old and older in my comfort and peaceful hometown,

However,
this little so-called dream 
was quite lifeless and idealistic,
is it?

I am definitely not a confident person.
When there is too many options, 
i get carried away.
Everyone is given one chance to live a life 
and i am not sure i want mine to be like this
i am fear of the opportunity costs that i don't even know
i am afraid of not living my life to the fullest, to explore more
i am afraid of regretting in the future
i feel insecure.

And there comes my dilemma,
which is killing me softly.

I know i will be the only person that can answer to all these stupid confusion
but i just cant pick myself up and put my minds in order.
Thinking too much was a waste of time and brain cells
while doing without much thinking could turn out to be another way of wasting time too
what should I do then?!!

Dear time, 
can you kindly run slower~(>.<)

新的挑战,新的目标

好些时候没有写作文了

我竟然会想念中学写华文作文的日子

现在的华文造诣大不如前

看回以前的作文都会觉得当时好有气质哦

竟然写得出那么有深意

如诗如画的句子

时间真的是贼

偷走了一切

偷走了单纯的笑容

偷走了傻气的少女情怀

偷走了我们在一起的日子

偷走了没到他手上的礼物

有一天一切都会不一样的

所有的人事物会在时间的洪流里

被冲洗成另一个面貌

也许让藏在泥泞的宝石现身

也会把看似宏伟的大岩石冲成小沙粒

既然没有人知道以后会怎样

那就不要浪费精神时间去烦

有些事就是需要一点等待当催化剂才会美丽

我要

活在当下活在现在

像以前一样

做一些几年后能让自己回味的事情

还有

让你以我为荣的事～